Sometimes I am so sure of myself that I am like an old shoe.
I have had a visit from my friend Pain the past two days.
I know these visits are fewer and further BEtween Now, yet I still seem to react in the old way.
This visit I have surprised myself and my friend, I think, BEcause I am NOT resisting.
NOT pushing back.
NOT calling names.
NOT, well, NOT DOing what I have always done.
It might still BE too early to call, but I think my friend Pain and I have turned a corner.
We're BEcoming better acquainted.
We're coming to accept one another.
Perhaps we have even grown to love each other, in a peculiar yet extraordinary way.
I have always resisted.
Attacked Pain BACK with "pain-killers."
NOT this time.
This time I am softer.
I am more understanding.
I see that Pain often comes to me when I need to stop.
NOT just slow down a bit.
Accept this is a part of BEing me.