It never occurred to me that BEing independent, as in dependent on no one other person [or persons] would feel so good.
I excused my dependencies in myriad ways [and bought each and every one, hook, line, and sinker].
And then the "Financial Support for Currie" plug got pulled.
I wasn't expecting it but I knew enough to know it was a possibility.
Yet I never saw what it was costing ME until a good while AFTER that plug was yanked out of the wall.
I felt I must give reason after reason and get agreement and approval from whomever was providing financial support.
I was well into my mid-fifties and still feeling I needed permission to BE.
Then there was the whole way I didn't really know what was REALLY essential for me to live my Life.
Sadly, I really did NOT know how much I had simply ALWAYS taken for granted.
I live much more simply, sparely, and JOYfully Now.
I am carrying my own Lifeline.
I answer Now to ME, no one else, and oh my who knew that could feel so good?!
NOT that I didn't appreciate the support when I had it, just that I really didn't appreciate it until I had only myself to "pitch" my ideas to.
I had a nice Life and I am grateful, no question, to parents, spouse, partner, and even my son for the help they have given, but thank you even more for saying NO...
I can lean deeply into this Lifeline Now.