I write a LOT. Perhaps I even write too much.
I wonder if there is a program for this?!
I canNOT imagine how I did NOT always write like this, but realising that lets me understand some other stuff.
Writing is very healing. And clarifying.
And as much as I love it when my writing touches someone or resonates with others, I have to say that I don't DO it for that.
NOT at all.
Although, I DO sometimes have one of my "regular" readers in my heart or mind when I write.
I suppose it is the connection piece [peace?!] of writing.
And so it is with that springboard that I approached this month's Photo Art Friday.
I am a collage artist, or at least that is what I used to think, and when I first tried my hand at Digital Fiddling, pretty much the coolest [and only] thing I understood was Picasa's collage feature.
So I left this month's theme for "last minute," even though Bonnie was so encouraging about working on it throughout April.
April kind of got swallowed whole for me. I was diagnosed with lung cancer and all I seemed to have got done was to keep "following the bouncing ball" of tests and procedures and doctor visits.
As May dawns I realise that the more Life changes the MORE Life changes. All I am EVER DOing is following the "bouncing ball."
Things look good Now. I had a long afternoon yesterday with a radiation oncologist. It is pretty awesome what he is able to DO with "digital fiddling" of another sort.
Anyway... the photo art.
Every morning I get up BEfore the sun and write for a few hours. I make a piece of digitally fiddled art. I share a small bit of my writing and my digital fiddling on my Gratitude blog, I Love You, Currie.
These little bits of art are made from photos, drawings, collages, mail art, paintings, and sometimes nothing more than words on a background or texture. Whatever they are in the World, they are my intention to give back what I have been so freely and generously given.
For a long long while Now I have been DOing one word and building my posts around that. It is fun. It is like a game. It is like eating M&M's. Even at that morning of the hour!!
I have always loved the encouragement, Use Your Words. It's probably something that I was NOT encouraged to DO so much, but... ;~D
When I was fiddling about earlier, wondering what to DO for Photo Art Friday, I considered digging up some of my old photo collages and tweaking them with the things I know to DO Now that I didn't know to DO BEfore.
But I got sidetracked DOing my April backup and started to get another idea from my April posts.
I should USE MY WORDS!!
And so, here, without fanfare, a selection of my words from April's Gratitude in a collage.
I tried it a few different ways. It was really fun. I could have gone on. [and I probably will, once the merry-go-round stops]
Thursday, April 3, 2014
Life's often a puzzler...
This is a photo I took in San Jose in April of 2009.
It was fun how it had my name + my last initial, so I played.
Now, 5 years hence, I found it makes for an excellent "selfie" launch pad.
[And it's "quirky" too.]
And, after a week in hospital and Now one recuperating, this was right up my digital fiddling capabilities alley for this month's Photo Art Friday.
I played with the photo one time:
Having explored overlaying some of the quotes I found in a nearby folder in my photo stash:
Since both seemed to signify new ways I am BEing Currie since 2009...
Then I tried some digital fiddling with some different layering over:
BUT... it was NOT so "different" so I decided to crop the CURRIES bit to make it stand out just a bit more.
All the values seemed to BE running into each other and same with my brain making creative connections!!!
About this point I was wondering if this even makes any sense, so...
Looking forward to "meeting" others "quirky face-to-quirky face" tomorrow!!
Thursday, March 6, 2014
It has been way too long a long time since I digitally fiddled with a photo straight out of my camera.
So, this month's Photo Art Friday gave me a chance to See What Happened When I broke that way too long a long time record.
I got to visit the current Chihuly Exhibit at the Desert Botanical Garden last week with my mum.
I had visited another exhibit when I lived here in 2009, and so I knew that I was in for a treat.
There are desert flowers and cactus of all sorts, but I was most enthralled with Chihuly's installations.
I did NOT realise until I was there that this was all new and different, so it made the discovery all the more exciting.
This one was a particular favourite BEcause once again the garden itself was transformed by Chihuly's remarkable glass.
It is pure JOY to let his colourful play take my imagination for a ride.
I've added Bonnie's Leafy Landscape texture to this and then just carried on in Pixlr Express.
I am REALLY REALLY looking forward to seeing what the other participants have shared in this month's digital showcase.
Sunday, February 23, 2014
Lately Life has been teaching me about the things called "chopping wood, carrying water."
I have had the extraordinary privilege of BEing able to live a quiet, ordinary, and really quite simple Life, one breath, one beat, one second at a time.
Even, mostly, no want-to's!!
This is all good.
What I have had ingrained over my lifetime is rather stubborn.
Like a stain from tea that just won't come out, no matter what trick I try.
And as a result, I have started to wonder if I am BEing lazy or even complacent.
BEcause, I've always thought Life is supposed to BE hard.
One problem solved and then another to take its place.
Reaching for a carrot that always moves just BEyond my grasp.
So, for me, this simple, quiet, and ordinary way of living Life seems suspect.
As I wrote that, I realised that I have changed.
At my core.
NO, all the things that have plagued me, all my regrets, and all of my sorrows have NOT magically been removed.
I am just okay with it.
After all, it's MY Life.
No one can live it any better [or worse] or even any different.
BEcause it is just made for ME.
I hear people [or mayBE I should say I read people] who speak eloquently about the problems in living Life in 2014, about those who are "hardest hit" by the circumstances of Life in 2014, and I know I should probably BE moved in a "better" way than to say I am enJOYing the moments of Life as it is for Currie in 2014, or just Right Now.
But I am saying that I quite like things as they are.
And as they are NOT.
NOT that I don't want Change.
NOT that I don't want Challenge.
And NOT that I don't imagine there will BE rougher seas on my horizon again.
It's just that I am happy Now.
And content to keep putting one foot in front of the other and BEing Present for each footfall.
Sunday, February 16, 2014
Today is just an ordinary Sunday.
It's remarkable though...
BEcause on an ordinary Sunday my Life has been touched and my eyes open and my Spirit blessed, all by people who have no idea how much their choosing to share something matters to Me.
I am just one person.
I am just someone who subscribes to their blog or what have you.
I am no one they set out to deLIGHT or even to inform.
This is what I love about the Internet.
The way we are connected even as we all circle Life within our own little universes.
It is a funny thing, having a blog.
I never know who will read me.
I rarely care IF anyone reads me.
I used to feel different.
I used to care way too much.
And that, I see Now, is what got in the way of ordinary amazement.
What if every day I allow my amazement to run free?!
What if every little bit I read I enJOY just for itself and NOT for WHO wrote it or what that person or that whatever has accomplished that I see BEyond my own grasp?!
Thursday, February 13, 2014
Lots of years I have felt like one of those people standing 8-deep outside of a department store window watching a black-and-white television.
I mean, I have felt myself at that remove from BEing anyone's Valentine.
Felt on the outside looking in.
Even felt sorry for myself.
Here's the thing:
I don't NEED someone else to "want me" to BE theirs.
I don't NEED candy, flowers, or pretty cards to know I matter.
That I am, indeed, the World to someone.
MayBE I shouldn't BE saying this out loud, but I really am all that [and more] to myself.
That's what I think and feel and BElieve.
Every. Single. Day.
[although there are days when I DO get on my last nerve!!!]
So my mailbox won't BE brimming over.
No flowers will BE delivered to my door.
And I won't have to curb my eating of chocolates and other sweets.
But I will BE someone's Valentine.
I will BE Mine.
Happy Valentine's Day!!!
Sunday, February 9, 2014
It is NOT my best thing, NOT by a long shot, following directions.
I like making it up as I go along.
I like the spontaneity and magic that is BEing creative, DOing my own thing.
[and that BUT, by the way, is NOT meant to negate all I have said]
Sometimes the Very Best Next Right Thing is to follow those directions.
I have been discovering this truth on pretty much a daily basis.
While I CAN and I DO often wing it, sometimes the directions just feel good.
They give a context and a container to the unwieldiness of Life.
They let my busy brain rest and seek a peaceful stream to nap BEside.
I'll probably always fight DOing Life by the instructions, BUT...
[and that BUT is also NOT meant to negate all I have said]
I'll probably come to appreciate having the choice more than I have so far.