Monday, December 9, 2013
Moving one's Life from one state to another can BE tricky. There are all sorts of things to consider and it's really helpful when you get it right the first time. Or at least after the first time when you realise you've got it wrong.
Or somebody has got it wrong!!
Last week I spent a LOT of several days on something that I was getting wrong. I'd got it wrong BEfore I moved. I got it wrong for 10 days after moving into my Wee Casa. And Now I've got it wrong all over again, twice more.
It's still in progress [or I hope it is progressing and NOT regressing again] and should BE sorted out by this week's end.
A large part of the problem is NOT only that the Right Hand doesn't know what the Left Hand is up to, sometimes the hands themselves have no idea what pie they've stuck themselves into.
Although I have moved so so sooooooo many times in my 60 years, I always promise myself this will BE the last one. [clearly I've NOT learned that I have no control, really, over this at all]
I have just spent 15 minutes going over a billing that is totally wonky. And BEcause of the first wrong thing above, I canNOT simply dive into straightening this one out. So I have to wait. Wait and see...
One thing is for certain, I need to BE accurate and get things in writing. I need to stop BElieving what people say BEcause oftentimes they don't DO what they say and then I end up feeling like a ninny for BElieving they would DO what they said they would DO.
Part of living a simpler Life, as well a minimalist one, is NOT having lots of stuff to manage and juggle. Or at least this is true for ME. I am simply tired of having to take care of so many balls in the air.
I know, too, I don't NEED to have all those balls in the air to BE living a simple and minimalist Life. I learned a LOT from my last move BEfore this one that I really can live without an awful lot I just assumed was essential.
I hope to come back here with a renewed sense of trust in the promises of others. And I hope this happens this week. I'm working on getting it sorted out that I simply have to wait on this one.
Sunday, December 8, 2013
I've been taking the morning slowly. Reading the many posts in my Feedly. Amazed at how brilliant people are. How much I learn from people I will likely NEVER meet in person.
Somehow I convince myself I know enough. I certainly HAVE enough. I definitely DO enough. But the KNOWING enough seems infinitely intrusive to me.
For instance, I was reading a post about how Christmas has BEcome this pretty hot entitlement issue. Well, of course that is NOT what the blogger wrote, but how I interpreted it, for me, Right Now, Today.
And I was reading about someone who is a really splendid human BEing who came by her splendidness through a World of yuck. That sort of thing makes me wonder if I'm really Here yet. You know, the Here which is the Where I Was Going When I Set Off?!
I also read about a couple things I am involved with, deLIGHTed to see the work others did, totally content that we each interpret things in marvelous ways.
Whenever I DO one of these long reading sessions, but sometimes even when I keep up daily, I realise I don't ever EVER really know enough. I think I DO, especially when someone is on about something I "get" pretty much.
Today I am turning that round to BE Teachable. Let the World and its marvelous inhabitants BE my teachers. See for a moment through another's eyes. Experience things in a way that is uncommon. Or simply BEyond my own experience.
There is a large chasm BEtween what I KNOW and what I can Learn. This is the most amazing thing to me about this World online. It's Right Here. At a moment's notice. Even sooner!!
I may well know enough, but I intend forever to BE Teachable.
I always thought that BEing myself was a bit of a raw deal. I mean, it was so easy to BE like someone else. Even several someone elses!! But the deal was BE Myself and so I kept at it. And at it. And at it.
Now I am happier about this whole proposition. I am able to embrace it, even its prickly parts. I realise there is no one else I CAN BE.
The problem with BE Yourself, from my perspective, was that DOing so seemed like the perfect set-up. I always fell short of what I imagined I should BE BEing. Or who.
Recently I found a thing that I have stuck on my mirror in the bathroom. It says: In a world where you can be anything, be yourself. I see this often and every single time I stop and think about it.
I have had, and I still DO have, a lot of ideas for the improvement of ME. I've had these ideas about others, too, but NOT so much as I DO for ME. Perhaps this is NOT such an awful thing. Perhaps this is simply BEing myself, or, BEing Currie.
I call this blog BE Currie BEcause it is someplace I can come and show up as just myself. Messy, imperfect, curious, thoughty, and as I am. Essentially, BEing Currie. In the moment. Or moments.
Saturday, December 7, 2013
Thursday, December 5, 2013
Even though I think I am pretty much a thoughty sort, I am often so NOT thoughtful it can knock me over with a blink.
I am especially aware of this tendency when I am trying to get help with something from a customer service person. I am already halfway to BEing all sighs and eye-rolls when really, I haven't allowed room for the other person to simply Show Up.
Today I was back and forth and forth and back and upside down and inside out with having my telephone number ported from one place to another and then back again when I realised I was putting myself in a worse predicament.
I was so confused at one point that I could NOT remember which company I was talking to and my notes were blurring all together into one blob of ink on paper.
The thing that woke me up was the kindness. The listening. The understanding.
It wasn't just one person. Or one place. It was like a little chorus of kindness singing just for me. Who knew?!
I'd had a meltdown a few weeks back over all this and I thought I was headed there again. Instead, I took a breath. I looked at things with some real thought and decided that I want to BE so thoughtful as the woman I was speaking with.
It wasn't HUGE, probably she is just as kind and thoughty with everyone, but somehow the giant voice prompt machine got us together and suddenly I saw how I am really NOT all alone out here in the World...
BE Thoughtful. That's something I want to BE.
Wednesday, December 4, 2013
Much as I have been very Eeyore-ish throughout my Life, I find that Life is just simpler when I choose to BE Cheerful. NOT that I am saying I stuff my iggy and yuck feelings and just put on a happy face, just that I am finally realising that BEing Cheerful is a whole other kettle of water bugs.
I am learning a LOT about CHOOSING who and how to BE since moving. I love my quiet and solitude, but it's entirely missing somedays. Oh well. I can still BE Cheerful. And kind. And approachable.
BEing Cheerful is a lot less effort than I'd considered. It doesn't require near the amount of energy BEing a crankypants does.
BEing Cheerful is even fun. And laughing [or simply smiling] seems to add to rather than take from the World.
BEing Cheerful helps others to raise their game, too. It seems really hard for others to BE all grumpy and cross when I am Cheerful.
What amazes me about BEing Cheerful is that Life is far better than my old Eeyore-ish self has been telling me all these years.
It's NOT so big a deal as somethings, but I am going to roll with it from here on out. I am going to reach for Cheerful BEfore I rely on Eeyore-ishness.
That's it. That's all. See you here tomorrow...
Tuesday, December 3, 2013
Today was pretty normal except that I took Gracie for her Spa Day to a brand new to us both place. She'd been a bit limpy lately, perhaps the cold has got to her eight-and-a-half + year-old body. MayBE she just was a little exuberant with her tennis ballies last week in the park.
Anyway, we found the place [and I am REALLY so over BEing a driver again...] and met the nice lady who was going to DO her thing. We reminisced a bit about good old Barkingham Palace and Papa Tony back in Delray Beach, but finally, with trepidation, I left her and went on my way to my FREE TIME.
I was less lost in the weeds than sometimes, and I found some ways to pass the time that weren't at all about cleaning [aka rearranging deck chairs on the Titanic]. That little chore I was happy to leave BEhind in the Wee Cottage. Our new Wee Casa is twice the size with about a quarter of the stuff.
I spent the morning and early afternoon DOing things that needed DOing and a few that did NOT but that I chose to DO anyway. It was fine. It was nice, really. But I was sure glad to come home to the message from the Dog Wash lady that my girl was coiffed and ready for pick-up.
I found myself thinking a lot about the past 2 months. We have only been here two months and I am starting to forget the Past and blend right on into the Present. [except for that car driving business... that ends tomorrow]
Moving was less a big deal this time. MayBE BEcause I have done it so many times I finally was ready to let it BE done without bother. I was open to the possibility that it could BE a simple thing. And, in most respects, I literally went to sleep in Delray Beach, FL, one night and woke up in Mesa, AZ, the next morning. Oh, there was a plane or two involved, but really, that was my intention from the day I decided to come back to AZ.
My mum thought I was asking too much. I knew though. I knew that BEing open to what I want is the surest way I know of getting it. And it is amazing how much BETTER THAN I'D IMAGINED IT BEing it was. [and is]
So... BE Open. That's my lesson from Today. And one I have had cause to enJOY greatly in 2013.
Sometimes I need to get out of my own way.
Mostly, though, I just need to remember to laugh.