Friday, April 12, 2013

NOT Just Another Friday...

DO YOU ever notice yourself slipping into taking lovely things for granted?! 

Are YOU ever suddenly woken up in the middle of assuming things would always BE one way and Now they are NOT?!

I have to admit, this has been the case for me lately...

Probably the biggest piece of this was when I fell on my head a few weeks ago. I was so glad I could get up, that Gracie wasn't hurt, and just to get home was more than enough.

Then, little by slowly, day by week, things started to shift slightly. And I started adapting to them.

Or that's what I am thinking.

For instance, I have lived long enough in my daily celebration of Gratitude that I just seem to BE grateful all.the.time. Without even breaking a sweat.

And I've just been DOing the weekly art challenges I DO as though they are as common as carrots.

Yet in the past few weeks I've struggled to find my Gratitude, been writing more disjointedly than ever I can recall, and both of my weekly "regular" celebrations of art-making and art-sharing have stepped away for a time...

It makes me wonder, all this Change.

Oh, and the gig I had teaching Kickin' Arts and Art FUNdamentals at the Delray Beach Center for the Arts since 2010 has decided NOT to have me DO it any longer, for financial reasons.

And then of course there are my own "financial reasons" which brings me back round to the lack of normal constancy in my Life. 

To this NOT BEing Just Another Friday...

Now my weeks are punctuated with dependence upon a paratransit ride service which is consistently inconsistent to go for cervical traction twice a week. 

My walks to the market or even with Gracie are dizzy and discombobulating and I've grown impatient and intolerant of things which, I suppose, taking Life for granted as I was, I was able to see past or simply NOT EVEN focus upon BEfore.

I am NOT saying I don't like, even LOVE the fact that Life is Change. 

[at least I don't think that is what I am saying...]

I'm really saying I feel adrift. Apart. Unhinged. Disconnected.

How about YOU?! Does this make sense?! 

How is it that YOU cope with Change and things you "take for granted" going all hob-gobbled just when you've found your rhythm and flow?!

I am challenging myself to write out loud for the 91 days, 1 April through 30 June 2013. I'm pulling questions out of hats and giving them some room to romp. If you have a question to share, please email me... 
silver dot currie at gmail dot com


Jeanne said...

When i feel discombobulated, It usually helps me to get away for a few days.. somewhere where I can be quite and do a little more reflecting that usual. I usually get this way when I am feeling overwhelmed about something. Also, my journal is a great way for me to 'get myself back together when I am feeling not my self.

Leovi said...

Yes, a wonderful metróplolis with some very pretty colors!