It's a week yet until my actual birthday, but I've shifted into that gear of reflecting and imagining, looking back over the year and considering, with an open hand and heart, what I might like to DO next.
This morning, after our wee Morning Adventure, Gracie was so exhausted that I just sat awhile and watched her wind down and regroup.
I was thinking how much she has taught me, especially in this past year, as our ages BEgin their convergence. [considering dog years times 7 makes her just about the same age as me Now]
And I was thinking about how my mum always makes sure I know I am in my 60th year and come next week I'll BEgin my 61st.
Gracie has taught me to live in each moment.
She has given me a shining example of NOT worrying and trusting everything that is REALLY necessary will BE supplied.
[sometimes magically]
Gracie "walks her talk" by always greeting Life with gladness and accepting things [okay, sometimes she needs persuading] just the way they are.
She lives simply, is visible, has great discipline, and knows what enough is.
[all of these BEing my words for the years 2010, 2011, 2012, and 2013]
Gracie gives more than she gets and she does so gladly, eagerly, and always.
She's just so HOW I want to BE, NOT when I "grow up" but Right Now.
Today.
Always.
And so I sat and wrote this little poeming to mark for myself what I am thinkingandfeeling Right Now.
In the last week of my 60th year.
Thoughts
On BEing 60
I am finding such
great JOY living Life
NOT BEcause of something or someone
Simply by choosing
to every day.
I have loved
and I have been loved
Sometimes at
the very same time
Other times NOT
so much or even at all.
I would trade anything
at all
Nothing
excluded, anything at all
For the peace I
know inside me Now.
Even when no
one notices or cares
I shall continue
showing up
And BEing who
and how I AM.
Even if I never
EVER have Hope
Of perfection
or success
I shall
continue on DOing Life my way.
I would love to
hear it said to me
And know its
warmth wrapped round me
But I’ll keep
saying I love you forever.
I know that I really am enough
I don’t need
anyone else to agree
Knowing is more
than plenty.
People still confuse
me all the time
And I want to
understand them
I’ve grown
comfortable with that.
Letting Go is
NOT my greatest strength
And yet I feel
it growing
Stronger each
and every day.
My days may BE
simple and small
In the Grander
Scheme of Life
Still, they fit
me perfectly.
I don’t know
how long I have left
To live and BE
and love
But I know it’s
already been enough.
4 comments:
Lovely poem - so thoughtful and thought full. You're so very much more introspective than me so I really appreciate reading your musings on turning 60 - I find that I can embrace much of it for myself. Happy early birthday :)
I'm 62 already and Karma's 8--so we're about the same age, too. I'd never want to go back. It was a long hard road to get here to this marvelous day and time. :):)
Hi Currie, I have enjoyed reading your thoughts on "60"...I turned 62 in Feb..It's taken me years to get where I am comfortable (somewhat) with who I am, where I have been and now where am I going with what I do. It's all an adventure and I embrace each day with a thankful heart...
Loving the picture of your painting+ fiddling, no doubt.
Since you are thinking about being 60 in a week I will wish you happy thoughts for the week before you are there.... I wish I could say some things about being 60. I will think about putting words to paper and send them to you.
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