It's a week yet until my actual birthday, but I've shifted into that gear of reflecting and imagining, looking back over the year and considering, with an open hand and heart, what I might like to DO next.
This morning, after our wee Morning Adventure, Gracie was so exhausted that I just sat awhile and watched her wind down and regroup.
I was thinking how much she has taught me, especially in this past year, as our ages BEgin their convergence. [considering dog years times 7 makes her just about the same age as me Now]
And I was thinking about how my mum always makes sure I know I am in my 60th year and come next week I'll BEgin my 61st.
Gracie has taught me to live in each moment.
She has given me a shining example of NOT worrying and trusting everything that is REALLY necessary will BE supplied.
Gracie "walks her talk" by always greeting Life with gladness and accepting things [okay, sometimes she needs persuading] just the way they are.
She lives simply, is visible, has great discipline, and knows what enough is.
[all of these BEing my words for the years 2010, 2011, 2012, and 2013]
Gracie gives more than she gets and she does so gladly, eagerly, and always.
She's just so HOW I want to BE, NOT when I "grow up" but Right Now.
And so I sat and wrote this little poeming to mark for myself what I am thinkingandfeeling Right Now.
In the last week of my 60th year.
Thoughts On BEing 60
I am finding such great JOY living Life
NOT BEcause of something or someone
Simply by choosing to every day.
I have loved and I have been loved
Sometimes at the very same time
Other times NOT so much or even at all.
I would trade anything at all
Nothing excluded, anything at all
For the peace I know inside me Now.
Even when no one notices or cares
I shall continue showing up
And BEing who and how I AM.
Even if I never EVER have Hope
Of perfection or success
I shall continue on DOing Life my way.
I would love to hear it said to me
And know its warmth wrapped round me
But I’ll keep saying I love you forever.
I know that I really am enough
I don’t need anyone else to agree
Knowing is more than plenty.
People still confuse me all the time
And I want to understand them
I’ve grown comfortable with that.
Letting Go is NOT my greatest strength
And yet I feel it growing
Stronger each and every day.
My days may BE simple and small
In the Grander Scheme of Life
Still, they fit me perfectly.
I don’t know how long I have left
To live and BE and love
But I know it’s already been enough.